SWEET MEMORIES OF ONOME4

I have rehearsed how to say this to you this in many ways and forms, i have had this feelings for a long time but i just knew this was the best moment to tell you..she continued looking at me silently not betraying any emotions as we stood there awkwardly looking at each other..


When she refused to say anything,i began to panic having forgotten all the coaching my brother had given me now,and i quickly told her that even if she was going to say no to give it some time and think it over.. after what seemed like an eternity she looked at me with sorrowful eyes and laying her good arm on my arm shook her head from side to side and said……..there is no need for me to think about it,although i am single like i have told you before while we have been chatting,i am not ready for a relationship and i dont think we are both compatible.. as i heard those words,it seemed as if the world stood still for me and the weight of the whole world collapsed on me,i could not  hear anything again and all i could picture in my mind was the rejection which continued to reverberate in my subconscious…as i made to continue talking just like those american movies she placed her finger on my lips and leaned in to kiss me softly on the cheeks.. as we continued to the car she held my hands and continued chatting normally as if no discussion had occurred between us, when we got to my friend's car i got in and we said our bye byes as we moved on,my friend asked me how it went and i told him that she would give me an answer later in the week. He was excited and assured me that she ll say yes bla bla i could not even hear all he was saying because my mind and heart was in a turmoil of epic proportions, i did not understand the rejection considering we have been getting on so well,plus i didn't understand the peck on the cheek and then holding my hands..i reasoned within was it a judas kind of kiss saying bye bye or was that an amber light for me to press on?i was so heartbroken that i could not even eat when i got home,my brother had gone to sleep early as he was going back to his school early the next day so i kept moping about the house by myself….i blamed myself for having feelings for her and asked if this was how the feeling of rejection felt like..i rewinded the conversation to see where i went wrong and ONOME didn't help matters with her mixed signals as she sent me a text goodnight saying i made her day for coming around to hers today…

I could not sleep until very late in the night rolling and tossing on my bed,and in spite of that i was up very early to catch my brother before he went to school ,when i narrated all that happened he smiled and didn't say anything,then he started to tease me calling me names and yabbing me pissed off with his attitude i turned round to walk away as he pulled me back telling me he was just joking with me all of a sudden he looked at me and said "u r in love o "but i quickly said i was not even though i knew i was deceiving  myself…he told me that i could not expect a girl who was as beautiful as i said ONOME was to just say yes straightaway,he asked me to continue speaking to her but not pressurise her while acting in a way that i will show her i was there for her and also a good friend.

After the day of the party,me and ONOME continued chatting on the phone as before but i did not mention anything about the night again,although i became extra caring like my brother had advised, she will call me in the midnight even while i was dozing off that she could not sleep and i will keep her company i then began to send her suggestive tracks about love some she will say a simple thanks or just lol and not say much more ..tere is one old school reggae song i discovered on youtube"NIGHT AND DAY,I WANA BE WITH YOU NIGHT AND DAY,I DONT KNOW WHAT I WILL DO OR SAY FOR YOU TO COME MY WAY" immediately i found that song i sent it to her on Facebook and she texted me that she really liked the song…i was sooo happy and felt like i had won a jackpot as that was the very first time i had ever gotten a positive response from her..this was about three weeks after her mum's birthday party.

I plucked up the courage to try again and asked her out on a lunch date,she smiled but said ok but it will have to be on a saturday and not more than 3 hours so i said ok….luckily for me my parents were travelling so i made my second attempt at taking the car out,this time around i enlisted the help of one of the drivers,he took the car out of the compound and then parked outside while i gave him some money to go out and have fun while i took the car to ONOME'S… when she saw me driving the surprise on her face and the compliment showing she was impressed puffed me up to twice my size. i was really feeling cool and over the moon,although due to the short time she had we could not go too far from her house so we went to the eatery on allen avenue road and just chilled there chatting generally…i am not sure what actually started the argument but i think she was on the phone with a guy who was at her mum's party who asked her who i was and she replied"just a friend"when i heard that it just seemed as if someone released a bomb which exploded right on my head, i was soo pissed off that my anger boiled over showing on my face instantly,although i didn't react i kept a stony face expecting her to apologise.. truthfully she was at fault because she was being rude and out of line although we were not dating then and didn't want to accept..as she continued talking i will answer her but without contributing anything still boning my face, as i began to work out why she would say that meaning she never really liked me to start with..eventually she asked me if i was tired of her company and i rudely replied asking what she meant? we kicked off again, this time i was talking as well as she was and immediately she stood up and asked me to take her home…i paid for our food ignoring her protestations to pay her half and we walked back to the car,we drove back to her house in silence and when i got there she got down and slammed the door with a thud and walked into her compound without a backward glance, i turned round going home dejected and in despair at the complete failure of the outing, at the same time blaming myself for even making an attempt but ending up being shown for a fool…

I went through the rest of the weekend dejected and almost suicidal,i was checking my phone every 20 minutes to see if she had called or texted my phone,i was always fully charged in spite of the Nigerian light situation but no phone calls or text.The next week,i used style to call my cousin in her school, someone i have not called for a very long while asking about her and he told me she was ok and still saw her the day before..only GOD knows how i was able to handle the first 1 week but after the 2nd week,i reasoned with myself that ONOME probably preferred the guy to me and that was why she said no.. she must have liked me more as a friend while i was making a fool of myself, even though i was still sad and dejected about her, her thoughts were constantly on my mind but i was learning to cope with the fact that she could not have me in her life…my birthday was coming up but i didn't even care one bit which was unusual for me and even those around me who knew me my mum even noticed asking me if i was ok and i said i was..the 3rd week passed and the 4th week which was my birthday i was preparing for a day out with a few friends of mine and the cash present my dad normally gives us on our birthdays..the catch is that if you forgot to ask him on the same day as soon as its like 1 second past you won't get anything until next year.. so i was on my marks the morning of my birthday, i was the first person in his study he just laughed when he saw me and i was doing eye service cleaning of his table as i greeted him and,he wet back inside his room and came back giving me the envelope..the day was going normally and i prepared,cleaning up and the driver dropped me off in the school…everything was normal in school, i flunked off some classes as usual and as soon as school finished i was out with a couple of my school mates (including the two guys that we met at the examination centre) we went to an eatery and everyone was eating and drinking on my bill suddenly my phone rang,i looked at it and it was an unknown number i was happy because i though it was my eldest brother in the united states who also had promised me some money so i quickly picked it up..when i heard the voice on the other end of the line my blood literally ran cold….i was stunned and speechless to the extent that even the guy near me noticed the visible change in me it was ONOME…..

Even if you have refused to call me or have anything to do with me,i have just called to wish you a happy birthday..i will send the present i got you through your cousin so that you won't have to see me……when she uttered those words even though i knew she was at fault,i nevertheless felt guilty as if i had committed the worst sin in this world, i was ashamed of myself and blamed myself for letting things degenerate that bad between us..after she dropped the phone i began to ask myself what if she is with another guy? she was a good friend and i should not have handled the situation that way….i continued blaming myself... imagine o just because of  a simple speech she made on the phone….women/girls!hmmmmmmn

My mind was not on the boys day out anymore so i quickly texted her if i could call her and she texted back that if i want to…hmmm she was not making it easy for me o….2 days after that day i plucked up the courage to call her and asked when i could see her, after asking about her generally and what she had been up to just to break the ice and make things seem normal even though it was not at that moment and time... she said she will stay on at school for a while after school for some society she belongs to and gave me a time to come..when i got there that friday, i really did not know what to expect but even i was not expecting the outcome of the friday meeting.

We in the SS3 classes finished a little bit early so we were able to leave for home earlier,i bribed the driver when he came to pick me so he took me to Airforce secondary school to meet ONOME,i got there a little bit early but it did not matter because my parents weren't home anyway and there was no way they would know what time we got home besides fridays in lagos is always notorious for hold ups anyway so thats a tenable excuse already me and the driver waited outside the school and were chatting generally like we always do the man giving me some of his tall stories about how he was a superman during the 2nd republic elections lol" with the kind of stories he told us,you will think he was jack bauer in 24 although his mouth was very sweet and the stories interesting …once  she was done with her society thing,i saw her walk slowly out of the school gate before she saw me,as i saw her my heart skipped a beat, i waved and walked towards her she saw me and put up one of her disarmingly warm smiles..as she did all the suppressed feelings i thought had gone away for good came flooding back with a vengeance..as i approached her still in my uniform and she too looking as beautiful as ever in her uniform,my heart beat quickened in nervousness but i managed to suppress it as i got to her and we hugged briefly…
I told her she looked beautiful in the uniform but she just laughed and shrugged her shoulders as she led the way back to the school compound and we looked for a place to sit down and talk….as we did, i started to talk meaning to tell her i didn't mean to be that hard on her, and all the speech i had prepared but before i could say anything she held her hand up….i am sorry for the way i behaved the other day…………i didn't realise how sensitive what i did was considering where we stood concerning what you asked me i told my brother and he blamed me for it saying he would have reacted as you did….again ONOME had surprised me and rendered me speechless, i was soo glad that i started to apologise for behaving the way i did as well, before i knew it we were hugging each other and i could see the hint of a tear in one corner of her eye..she said she had missed our daily night chats and i same i had as well, we began gisting normally about what we had both been up to as she confessed that she almost called me several times from the very first week but had been afraid i will not speak to her imagine the irony..

As we continued gisting,she said her mum asked after me the week before a couple of times but she mumbled an excuse,only her elder brother knew what had happened and urged her to call me..as she said this i smiled jokingly i said  hope you told her you rejected me for your lover boy on the phone…immediately she replied shaking her head from side to side..rejected you when? besides the "lover boy" is a distant relation o,but you were too jealouse to even ask me  rather you jumped to conclusions, thats why i didn't apologise at first….when i heard this, i was more ashamed with myself and hasty conclusions..so i quickly replied her  both of us looking at each other steadily,mischievous smile playing around our lips...if you didn't reject me then have you accepted me then?….i left the question hanging in the air, still she didn't make it easy for me also playing the game with me with as much skill…. i dont know what you are talking about, accepting or rejecting but whatever it is well you ll need to ask me again and find out?……with my heart beating wildly,as she turned her back to me pretending as if she was looking for something in her bag,i heaved a sight and placing my hand on her shoulder as she looked back at me…i solemly said ONOME WOULD YOU GO OUT WITH ME PLEASE?…

The silence in those brief seconds was deafening,it was as if the whole earth stood still and everything was moving in slow motion,we were both  gliding in a cloud of blissful joy and she blinked a couple of times as she continued to look at me….as tears dropped down her eyes she looked down and reached for me hugging me and at the same time nodding as she gently said yes it was like a scene from a hollywood movie and i am sure if hollywood saw that scene they will pay us millions of dollars lol…i reached out and hugged her tight, i was really moved by her show of emotion,i wiped her tears away and told her this was the happiest day of my life..she looked up at me smiling through the tears..then her eyes turned serious ……….. you are my second relationship ever,i hope you will not  disappoint me or make me regret ever getting into this relationship with you….in order not to appear too glib i waited for a couple of seconds my arms round her shoulder at the same time wiping the last of her tears i promised her that i will always love and cherish her….

i dont even know how it started,nor did i remember who actually made the first move but in the corner where we were sitting all i know is that we were suddenly in each other's arms kissing, i have had varied sexual experiences with both older ladies and young girls but the softness of her lips, her soft luxurious hair coupled with the sweet smelling perfume which assailed my nostrils made the experience of kissing ONOME completely different and out of this world,i could not get enough of  kissing her but we had to stop in order for us not to get caught….
Eventually  she received a call that their driver was waiting outside,we hugged and kissed passionately one last time before we both parted walking separately we both approached our cars and went to our different houses…as soon as i got home her text greeted me…did you get home ok" boyfriend? and i texted back i did thanks sweetheart what are you up to girlfriend?lol